When I was young there was nothing that could stop my conviction. I was the type of child that tried to organized adults, who gave away opinions for free and would do a buy one get one for free option with the free one, and found that anything I thought about and wanted to do – I could. I was part of a new generation that was starting to be empowered by their parents rather than disciplined. I learned that girls could do anything and I believed it.
It wasn’t until I was 25 and managed by a bunch of baby booming just achievers who would not be shown up types that I had my conviction squashed.
(but I’m not bitter) I had a good job and obligations and as much as I wanted to walk away from the job I decided to apply my stubborn streak and hold out for the win. What I lost ended up changing the next decade of my life.
At eighteen our convictions are hills from which we look; at forty-five they are caves in which we hide.
F. SCOTT FITZGERALD, “Bernice Bobs Her Hair“
I now work primarily with a Generation Y crowd. They certainly believe in their convictions, they believe others care and want to know their thoughts, they have platforms all over (Facebook, YouTube, iTunes, etc) to share their energy and they succeed in a mannerism like no other generation before them. Just being in the environment has recharged my convictions, my passion, my personal energy. This is a place where I have received more than a paycheck is personal payback for my work.
I am at a point of personal dilemma with my work. I have an obligations to execute a plan of action which will impact the future of my office in Omaha. I own the responsibility for the influence as this decision; I am the authority on the recommendation. I’ve presented, hit a wall. I regrouped and reassessed my audience and represented and hit another wall. I feel so strongly I just can’t let it go. I struggle with the thought that maybe I’m blinded by the facts with my own passion (or insert pride, or ego). How far am I willing to go for my belief?
I wonder how many others have these internal struggles of their own? When to we succeed to another’s recommendation and step back? What is my obligation to my company to give it my all and again face the wall with a new approach and stand true in my beliefs. I struggle and seek insight.
How convicted are you?